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May 29, 2007
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if they are still doing that despite seeing a mere faint and distant light at the end of the tunnel, how can i give up? they gave me what they had to be here. i will not leave empty-handed. mark my words. Posted by dew at
i am so freaking angry. instead of blowing up your ears, i should just scream here. case 1: environmental planning "i see that you are very clever in bringing together the vast array of information..but i see little appreciation of the information..the wairau stream that you have discussed is out of your catchment" fuck you. really. how on earth would i know that the information that i have found is for the tributaries of that fucking stream which extend out of my catchment. you really think i live here?!?!!!!!! be thankfully that i even went all out to find the freaking information for that idiotic catchment!!!!! fine me for extending my limbs out of the boundary when i dont even know where the hell the bloody line is! and guess what. it is geog. i love it. ask me, hitler rules. you kill, you die. and that is it. case 2: development 'sir, didnt you say that we dont have to calculate for sensitivity analysis during your lecture?' 'why would i say that?' 'but that's what you said' 'out of the whole cohort, there is probably only two who didnt calculate. anyway, it doesnt matter too much as well. it doesnt make much of a difference when we are calculating the marks. how much did you get?' '45' 'so you are upset about your results?' 'yes.' 'you can come and see me after the lecture on friday.' fuck. i want to slap myself. you said it and you asked me why would you say that. you know how it feels when your lips tremble uncontrollably in anger. slap me. really. come. for once, you can slap me for all you want. as much as i hate to say this. you win. Posted by dew at
two c- and one fail. great. was i sleeping through my reports?! fuck. what was all the stress for.. oh yes. it was fun. all for the purpose of amusement and getting hyped up for the moment. i cant believe how much delight i have gotten out of this. this is a joke. how hilarious. arent you tickled? you are, arent u. i am amused. so will you. oh! didnt you say it is the process that matter? oh yea. i had a hell of a time. it was fun! not convinced? you have to!!! ohhh..please do!!!!! FUCK!!!! who cares a hoot about the process!! read my lips. FUCK OFF!!! this is not fated or whatsoever. I AM NOT PLEASED WITH THIS OUTCOME. in fact, I HATE IT!!!! I AM CHANGING THIS!!! destiny? SCRAM. i am clearing all of them with results that i will be satisfied with. I AM NOT GOING TO LET HISTORY REPEAT ITSELF. instead of pointing fingers and finding reasons for them, i will see that something is done. i am a loser where all emotions are involved. BUT I AM NOT GOING TO LOSE THIS BATTLE. WITH WHATEVER I HAVE, YOU WATCH OUT. SCREW YOU. Posted by dew at
May 27, 2007
is it easier to trod on the same path after the first? does it apply to everything? the shorter return route from parnell triggered a series of thoughts and memories.. how has it been? despite the physical distance all this while, has anything changed? i have made myself the prisoner of the one-man cell that i have constructed. trapped within the four brickwalls. by the bricks that i have laid piece by piece. how long do i want to be in this. it comes back. imagine the gasps for air as you tear when you run. it was and is suffocating. literally and metaphorically. it was absolutely random.. was it? i was thinking of the gifts to get for everyone and the question of getting you one surfaced. should i? how to? i knew what i would get for you the very moment i applied for sep in auckland. but things have changed and it has became a matter of should or should not. if i did, how am i supposed to pass it to you? what kind of facade should i put on? pretend that i have gotten over everything and act friendly? or pour out every single thing that went through my mind. i recalled the plot that i told sam about. all the pretence in hope for something else. scheming. silly. receiving another rejection is the last thing i want. why would you want to put yourself in that vulnerable state again? i dont have an answer for that. i want an answer myself. or do i have the answer in the first place? why would i want to do that. why. if i have a chance to choose what i want to do with memories, what would i do? erase them? no. i treasure it and i am thankful that you were part of this. but it is painful.. too painful. please freeze it and safekeep it in a chest. i will savour every bit of it years down the road. not now. i just to be happy. like an innocent child... sitting on the merry-go-round and doing a pan-kiss every time i see momo. chuckling at the little actions that momo does. .. the simple pleasures. bent on finding the 6km mark during my run this afternoon, i went further than usual only to find that it was less than 10 metres from where i stopped the previous time. the end was so near but it seemed so far back then. had i not continued running, i would never know how close i was to the end that i was looking for. am i next to the exit?
or am i walking around in circles, groping in the dark? numbed, i ran on another 1 km to mission bay. how far can i push myself? what is all these imprisonment about? one fine morning, i will to wake up to find all shackles gone. released. when will that be? Posted by dew at
May 22, 2007
it only dawned on me last night..no..just now at 4ish am that my approach was wrong.. submission is at 4pm tomorrow.. 3000 words, 60 percent, a critique on 2 planning policies.. examine critically... right. i should be thankful that i kinda finally understood what the question was asking for before i went on further. BUT, i am only at the very initial stage of the essay. ... alright.. let's try this slippery slope theory. nus is known to be good, in asia at least. so the students that it takes in ought to be of a fairly desirable standard as well. since i am a sep student FROM nus, i SHOULD be equipped with a critical mind that sees and analyses things pretty well. so in the next 29 hours, i am swearing by the nus brand. do not doubt the possibility of students forgoing harvard for the entry into nus. the advertisement could very well be real! now we see how faith works.. out of desperation. the mere 2 hours of sleep from monday to wednesday will be all worthwhile. superwoman i will be. believe that it can be done. nothing less. Posted by dew at
May 21, 2007
..i would be the most fickle minded guy ever. spoiled for choice!! just look at all my girl friends and you will know! feminine ones.. hmm..are there? alright! jia and ning..i give it to you! siew, you dont have to act. you were never in the league. wahahah!! anyway, the overly feminine ones give me shudders as well. oops. then there are many of the wacky and crazy ones!! in fact, all of them are a little mad to some extent..only that some are more serious than the others! wahahaha!!! and i definitely have the very blur ones! jin and jia, you dont have to hide! there are only the two of you. hahaha!! *muacks* (ning, han and celeste can be quite blur at times too..hehe) like spicy food? i have shi too! hehe. dont mess with my darling eh. let me warn you, my ting is also damn fierce. not to forget, my jenny over in auckland! brainy and efficient girls? yes! siew, you are here! hunnie too! not to forget my dear jenny and ting! sweet, cheerful and bubbly ones? i have many!! decisive dearies? shi, ting and siew! to avoid disappointment, less intellectual and wimpy guys need not apply. hahaha!!!! gosh. aint i overwhelmed by all the available choices? hmm.. but did i say if i WERE a guy? sigh. what a waste. oh well..then i should be thankful that i am girl! since they will love me besides their beloved, that effectively makes me the next closest in the line!! arent you jealous?!! sorry guys. **i recognise my bull power..hahaha..stress induced** Posted by dew at
May 20, 2007
听着这首歌曲, 大伙儿一起玩闹的点点滴滴都不惊异地被钩起. 开心, 辛苦, 心酸的日子.. 上学期的酸甜苦辣都历历在目. 拿着麦克风, 你似超级市场的销售员不停地叫卖. '来啊,来啊. aunty,要不要试看我们最新推出的的拖把?' 说着说着,站在一旁的三八绣便会不由自主地摇起她的那扫把头,惹得大伙儿捧腹大笑. 在空荡荡的LT里, 大家都闹成了一疑团. 本以为神不知鬼不觉, IT Technician却含着淡淡的微笑穿过LT走到后面的男厕. 哦, 被发现了! office里有survelliance camera!! 要不然technician哪能在没人传召的情况下预知机器出了状况?! (dont tell me you dont know) 哈哈哈! 虽是不好意思,大家都装着一副若无其事的模样. 没关系.. ..继续玩! 哈哈哈哈..笨死了!!! 这根本就是笨到了级点但..它却是多么美好的回忆. 尽管有多忙碌,好朋友却不忘忙里偷闲, 苦中做乐.. 我好想你们喔!!!!! 好想好想!!!! 雨天是伤感的.. 是回忆的温床.. i miss you darlings. Posted by dew at
May 19, 2007
freak. i am super angry. turned in with all the pent-up nonsense and the mosquito had to disturb me the moment i snuggled into bed. the blanket had me covered all the way up to my mouth and it senselessly bit it?!!!!! I HAVE SWOLLEN LOWER LIP!!!!!!! YOU YOU YOU!!! YOU WERE DISTURBING MY SLEEP!!! flying and buzzing around my ears! I COULD HEAR YOU!!!!!! and of all places, WHY MY LIPS!!!!!!!! WHAT IS WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! got off the wrong side of the bed?!! NO!!! i only have ONE SIDE to get off from!!!! i actually intentionally slapped myself real hard on the face in my attempts to exterminate you!!! you were flying THAT close to my face?! !!!! i was desperate. and i still am. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the rational side of me is watching how the strung up gets into those crazy acts and lunatic moves..hollering, growling and bawling away.. i hate reports!!!!! gggggrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!! do not mess with the strained ass over here. she will remain quiet..very very quiet. sshhh. harass her and you DIE. Posted by dew at
May 13, 2007
NEVER SAY DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ENERGISER BUNNY!!!!!!!!!!!! BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ![]() Posted by dew at
May 12, 2007
please stop bingeing.. please stop..i beg you.. you are way too full to eat anymore. stop.. please. this is not going to help. you are feeling sick. stop this.. Posted by dew at
damn..i really shouldnt lie and talk bad about people. retribution. i never fail to get it. i realised that i have lost my student id card an hour ago..just when i need it the most (to borrow tonnes of library books for my reports). no doubt the librarian, simon, was kind enough to make an exception for me to borrow without an id card since the architecture library wouldnt be opened tomorrow, it is depressing to have missing belonging and to pay for your carelessness monetarily. what's more inconvenience. so much for the cock and bull story that we made up to delay our presentation date for development. the lecturer announced the presentation date yesterday and my group was allocated to present on this coming tuesday on the analysis of a recently completed building. given the short notice, the deadlines we had and the test on monday for the other two group members, they decided to do it. damn, how confident and firm i was as i tried to convince the lecturer when he queried on our honesty after another member told him our excuse. 'is this bona fide?' he asked. 'yes. definitely..blah blah..' i said with a straight face. so yes, this is the retribution for telling a lie without even batting. too bad for you. say some more and let's watch how you die. sorry mr lim. i shouldnt laugh at your potato physique. but i still dont like you. Posted by dew at
i almost forgot about this. lemme see. this person yeow heng lim tried to add me on friendster and i was puzzled. who the hell is he. so i clicked on the email notification and OH MY GOD!!! it's HIM!! MR POTATO from SA!!! what yeow heng lim. LIM YEOW HENG!!! the short and stout (excluding the strong component) physics teacher who insists on wearing SUPER tight fitting pants despite his freaking big and round ass!!! his pants always look as though it is going to burst any minute! i will never forget you mr lim. you are such an ASS. oh, let me introduce. he is the shortest physics teacher in sa who thinks he is damn fit (alright, you are quite fit) and ran in his GARFIELD tee shirt from his house to temasek polytechnic when we were there for a hockey training (he was our hockey teacher-in-charge). *zzz* i supposed he is in his thirties? and he is oh my, damn encouraging. 'i heard from mr lee (my physics teacher) that two you are going to fail your physics..hahahaha' oh yea man. that is SOOOO funny. only to you mister. you were laughing throughout the conversation with me and jin at how dead we were instead of offering any REAL help for our physics. damn it. you potato man! how dare you come and add me on friendster! now that we are out of sa, come'on jin, let's whack his ass!!! *ANGRY* i have never seen anyone like you! ![]() Posted by dew at
little did i expect it to be the University of Auckland Graduation Gala Concert & Competition, i attended it anyway to give support to our dear sarah f. (who will be playing her french horn). watching the procession winding its way through queens street as graduates parade in their colourful academic dress throughout the week, the emphasis and importance placed on the event are evident. while i found academic dresses with white furry hood silly looking on guys, i was envious and amazed nonetheless. astounded at the extent of elaboration and envious of their release from the sea of reports. haha. what does nus do during their graduation ceremonies anyway? hmm. if they ever get us to walk around the campus or along the busy roads of Orchard Road, i wonder how many would actually do that under the hot and humid weather conditions. haha. the chancellor would probably sneeze to his deathbed with all the cursing and complaints made behind his back. wahaha. (**each faculty has a different coloured hood and planning has a green hood!!! it's the green like that of Gryffindor's in harry potter! so pretty!!) the symphony concert itself was in fact an evening of classical music with a competitive twist as they call it. together with the players from the University's School of Music players and the Auckland Philharmonia Orchestra (APO), the three soloist from the School of Music virtuosos each performed a concerto of 20 minutes. my favourite piece was Tchaikowsky Violin Concerto in D opus 35 (1st movement) by eugene lee (violin, 3rd year bachelor of music, student from south korea). while his facial expressions were peculiar and hilarious to some extent given the frequent twitching of his right eyebrow, he did a beautiful job in his delivery. so needless to say, he was the winner of the day. haha. the weird part of it was that the soloists seemed to know the results of the competition before they got onto the stage. they lined themselves according to the competition outcome instead of their sequence of performance AND there was no trace of exhilaration shown on their faces as the results were announced. so no fun can. hmmm. fake. and oh oh, all three soloists were asians (taiwan, south korea and dont know where)! hmm hmm. oh well. hehe. the highlight of the night was the CARAMEL FUDGE & WALNUT icecream and WEDGES! wahaha!! it was drizzling when everything ended and nothing beats having an icecream in the cold!! the best part is...the icecream smelled so damn good! thick and gooey caramel fudge in a milder tasting vanilla icecream with savoury walnuts. *awww* the smell of caramel lingered on my lips even after finishing the icecream and my wedges! and of course, to smell it, some skill is involved! hahaha!! pout your lips so that the upper lip touches the nose! hahah!! sorry to say, i was doing that the whole night. awww. so once again, this serves to remind me the reason why i hardly buy lip gloss or lip balm with vanilla or fruity smell. i EAT them. hahah! mama mia~ Posted by dew at
May 09, 2007
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it's from ALL OF YOOOOOO!!!!!!!! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!! i was screaming for 1 full hour!!! ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! this blur cock forgot her keys when she went out with jenny and she had to go to the office to get the duplicate key from ruben. 'oh, you have a parcel!' 'ah?' 'AHHHHH!!!! MY DARLINGS!!!' ![]() so i dashed back to my room, got my own keys, returned the borrowed key and tada!!!! hey hunnie..didnt you say it was small and i had to look out for it really carefully?!?! ![]() i had a hard time opening the package. it was so tightly sealed! haha. and this stupid girl was so anxious to open the envelope that she opened the wrong side of it. zzzz. 'why on earth do they want to seal a card so tightly?!..oops..wrong side. damn it. =( 不美了!' (i stuck a scott tape on it. as if it helped. =(( ) ![]() the card! ahhhh!!! so cute!!! ![]() this was the first thing that caught my attention when i opened the card. i was all confused. number 3 was circled and it was written 'papa'. my daddy??? you got my dad to write on this??!? but there was another word on it - 'march'. huh? but my dad's is on 3rd dec. huh? ![]() and oh my god!! i saw this!! ![]() ahhhh!!! it's john!!!!! my papa from sde!!!!! YES!! 小牛!! me me!! i didnt know your birthday is on 3rd march and i never knew your writing looked like that!!!! looks like siew's!!!! so girlish!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! shocks in 2 consecutive days!!! what happened to all your handwritings?!?!!! your handwritings got me really disoriented for the first 2 minutes! trust me! wahaha!!!! i am elated. overjoyed. over the moon! the card from all my darlings!!! *sobsob* ![]() ![]() i was making hell lot of noises as i read the card! oh man. i want to hug all of you!! siew, hunnie, ning, han, xuan, papa!! and there was more! 1 card, 1 GIFT!!! there is a GIFT!!!!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!! ![]() hmmm..okies..why do we need another wrapping after the first? more layers to come???? ![]() and then.. OH MY GOD!!! ![]() MORE SHOCK!!! ![]() FREAKING SHOCKED!!! how did you know that i wanted to get a wallet to replace the old one?!?! ![]() then i was pleased. 沾沾自喜! ![]() and i melted. awwwww. ![]() I LURVE YOOOOO DARLINGS!!! MUACKSSS!!!!! (cannot give you the real one over here..let this virtual muack be a substitute okie? i will make it up to yooo in july!! hoho. but papa need one also ah? hug ok? hehe.) ![]() ![]() i miss yooo tooo... =( Posted by dew at
May 08, 2007
I HAVE RECEIVED YOUR CAKE!!! wahahah!! so HAPPY! hehe. i was almost dead when i was heading out to submit the damn report that made me go all the way down to the lecturer's commercial office to seek help, stay up till 530 in the morning to hear my lovely cousins partying on my roof and wake up at 10 to wrap up the last but most important portion. BUT when i was dragging my feet down the hallway, i saw this pink thing sticking out of the mail slot for surnames starting with C. MINE!!! wahaha!! from who?! i couldnt tell from the handwriting. YOU!? wahahaha!! gosh. your handwriting puts me to shame. wheeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! lalalalala~~~~~ tastes like blackforest cake to me!!! *winks* ![]() hehe. i will be VERY FULL this year! lurve the cake! hehe!! ![]() i definitely feel like this right now..hahhaa!! sweet. ![]() Posted by dew at
May 06, 2007
alright..with me working my ass off in the next few weeks, see me BUTTLESS after the 23rd of may. dooms day is moving in..closer and closer..stealthily..but not that skilfully. i can see you approaching me..DEVOURING me!!!! *CRIES* this is a nightmare. or should i say this is only a prelude to year 4... evil lurks.. beware. Posted by dew at
May 04, 2007
SKIING!!! i had my first go at it yesterday!!! it was FABULOUS!!!! *melts* SnowPlanet is an indoor skiing area and it is definitely less overwhelming for a beginner like me. 'wear more thermals!' jenny reminded me. 'it's ONE DEGREE in there!' wheee!!! imagine the puffs of vapour as i speak. hohoho. i was one happy girl! the exterior ![]() see how that building extends up the slope? hehe. ![]() looking into the skiing grounds from the cafe ![]() starting from basics, the instructor taught us how to control our skis and move around in them without the poles. walking up the slopes sideways and skiing down with our skis wedged. i was actually quite desperate at the very beginning of it. i was stranded when we had to follow the instructor up the slopes and i had to wave at the instructor for help. it just didnt work when i tried to move one foot ahead since the other foot would be sliding backwards. one crazy girl right there. wahaha. then i was crashing into the other beginners in front of me thereafter. my skis were caught in between their legs. faints. i had the worst one when we were up on the slope. i bumped into Holly after i got off the magic carpet (an automatic trailer that brings you up to the top of the gentler slope) and the both of us were moving downwards uncontrollably in a very slow but terrifying fashion. thank goodness we had the instructor right in front of us. else, we would have tumbled down the slope together. hahaha. i was really glad that she didnt gave me the killer stare for putting her in such a predicament. hehe. 'skiing' down the slope on my first try was nerve wrecking! i bent my knees thinking that it would provide me with better balance but crap, it sent me down faster despite doing the wedge which would supposedly bring you to a stop. =~( the thought of coming down the slope for the second time was a chore then. thankfully, the instructor corrected my posture during my second attempt and I FELL IN LOVE WITH IT. gosh. it was funny how it turned out when my instructor saw me going down the slope as she was coming up on the magic carpet. 'AWESOME!!' she screamed. i flashed her my big wide smile, beaming with joy of course, but only to realise that a skier had fallen not too far ahead of me. i got panicked and all flustered. 'HELP!!' i thought. and jenny's words came ringing in my mind. 'use your toes!! exert pressure on the side that is opposite of where you want to go to'. my, jenny you are a saviour!! muacks!! that's usually how it goes huh. one moment of happiness and one moment of terror! hahaha. this has gotten me all excited about skiing at the end of the semester!! i am so looking forward to the skiing at Queenstown!! this is just one lick off the icing of the cake! awwwww. come'on. give me MORE yummy stuff!! Posted by dew at
May 02, 2007
OH MY GOD!!! jenny just told me that there were MICE on our roofs!!!! THEY WERE SCRATCHING OUR ROOFS!!! they woke her up last night!!! initially, she thought that somebody was at the door but the sleepy and confused jenny went back to sleep not long after. and one moment ago, she walked over to my side and said 'we have mice'. 'WHAT?!?! WHERE?!?!!'. 'rooftop'. freak!! i am so going to close my windows!! i have so much food on my side! meaning that there is a terrible high chance that my mouse cousins will party on my studying desk (that is by the freaking window) ! despite the affiliation, i dont think we know each other that well. thanx for dropping by though. cool. i appreciate that. that's it. byebye forever. never going to see you again. Posted by dew at
i cant believe it. i am feeling stressed!!! very stressed. the last thing that can come out from the mouth of an exchange student. what the f***. binge. insomnia. sigh. the deadlines have changed. the most updated ones are 7th, 8th, 16th, 17th and 23rd. i am so going to die for the submissions on the 16th and 23rd. planning report on the 16th and governance report on the 23rd. the governance report is really a bitch. 60 percent. that is f**king going to murder me. whatever. i am going for my run again. please drain every single bit of energy that i have. I NEED SLEEP!!!! =~( Congrats to my darlings who are done with your exams. Great job!! =) Posted by dew at
May 01, 2007
dear, do you remember what you told me the other time about people losing their nose studs in their sleep? IT HAPPENED THIS MORNING!!! crap. i knew i was touching my nose in my sleep when i had that series of dreams..what the hell was i dreaming about!?!! did i actually pull it out myself??!!!?! sigh. it was weird that i actually sat up before my alarm went off at 0730 to check if my stud was there. the first word that came to my mind was F***..jumped out of bed to find my stud, cleaned it and tried to put it back in. boy, it was as stubborn as a bull. thankfully, jenny came back from breakfast not long after and rendered me assistance. BUT, the original stud didnt fit and jenny gave me a tiny one of hers. it was freaking painful since the inner wall of the nose was swollen from all the poking. i was in cold sweat and the dizzy spells totally left me weak and bedridden. instead of the black spots that you would usually see before you faint, i saw total darkness even with my eyes wide-opened. it was hell of a time. it was far worse than piercing it. and i meant far far far far worse. the stud didnt exactly go right through the hole so i headed straight to the tattoo parlour during my break at 11. 'is it going to hurt a lot? morning was a trauma!' unlike the fast and reassuring response he gave me when i did my piercing, his face cringed a little and winked at me. darn. oh wells. at least, i had it back in again. this thing is giving me so much trouble. consecutive days of bleeding, falling out. argh. i should seriously bind myself before i sleep from now on. oh, and tape that mouth of mine as well. jenny said i was sleeptalking around 6ish in the morning. it must have been that fight in my dream..for honey you say? haha. you better watch out. if my nose stud ever comes out again, i better see some TANGIBLE form of compensation for the pain and the bad quality sleep that you have put me through. bish. hehe. ;) Posted by dew at |
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