as the plane touches down, things have become seemingly different..
i am back in auckland in a different persona..
as a tourist instead of a student..

as a squatter instead of the resident of IH..

just 4 months back, this girl was eagerly awaiting a brand new start in the land of cows and sheeps.
envisioning a change.. the beginning of a new chapter.
despite trodding along the same path, emotions have changed.

this sense of familarity is strangely detached.

everything here no longer 'belong' to me.

it is all cloudy today.

a gloomy weather that adds to the icy cold atmosphere.

after one full cycle of studying and touring, my term has come to an closure.
with all my modules cleared and decent grades obtained, i can finally account to my dear financiers and the department.

as i heave a sigh of relief, sadness loom.

i will be leaving this place in a couple of days.

as much as i would love to see all my darlings back home, it is depressing to know that this is soon becoming history.

as much as i complain throughout the semester, i like to be here.
not for the place but the way i have to fend for myself.
living in an unrestrained yet responsible manner.
accounting to yourself and nobody else.
being put in a new environment, adaptability says it all.
yes. learning to learn.
it is definitely nothing new but it hits you faster and harder when you are on your own.
i can whine and cry but i will find my way out.
i can be a wuss but i am no quitter.